Hello all, welcome back to my blog. Today I decided to write about how I think that I have become too self aware due to the fear of being perceived as ignorant. As I was reflecting on this past year, I realized that I spent the majority of it overthinking every little thing about myself and making myself miserable. It all started from sitting in on a conversation that my friends were having about other people. That conversation was such an eye opener because I realized that people will never tell you how they truly perceive you. The fear of being perceived by someone in any other way than the way I see myself sent me into a never ending cycle of constantly wanting to seem perfect all the time. I spent a lot of time making sure that I seemed effortless and was likable by everyone around me. As ironic as it is, I was overthinking about the fact that I overthink everything which brought up the question, is it better to be too self aware or have no self awareness at all? I’m sure we have all heard the phrase ‘Ignorance is bliss’. But is it really? Not being aware of your surroundings or thinking about the consequences of your actions before you do them seems so peaceful, but I think it is irresponsible. Being unaware of your actions or how you are perceived by other people may seem like you are going with the flow, but I personally think that does not give you any opportunity to grow. For example, if you are in a situation where you are in the wrong and no one is going to confront you about it, how will you know unless you criticize yourself? Maybe this is an unhealthy mindset to be in because then you are constantly in your head, but the balance between having no self awareness at all and being too self aware is a thin line that I have yet to learn how to balance on. I would love to hear your guys’ opinions on this, so feel free to comment!
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